It seems like ages since I last came here. I avoid coming here because I just can't seems to find the courage to face my problems. A lot of things happen over the last few months. Thinking back, it has been so long since I am able to smile from the bottom of my heart. I guess I am lucky enough to pass by each day now without thinking suicidal. I am very sad. Seriously very down. I don't know if I will ever be able to live a normal life again.
Anyway, I feel that it is just a matter of time before we officially break-up. Is like we are waiting now who would say the words out first. I absolutely see no future in us anymore.
I am trying to get use to my life without him and hope I will be able to cope with the depression.
As I am writing this post, my heart still ache with pain. Guess the wound has not completely heal yet. Wonder how long more it needs to take?
